Looks slightly dead around here and that's sad to see (though not surprising with the rise of Facebook). I doubt very much anyone remembers me, but I was extremely active (posting comments all day every day) for about a year back around 2011. I was curious if anyone was around from then. The folks I remember most are lainie, eccentricaheep, and polish Tom. Again, I doubt any of these folks remember me. What I do want to tell them if do remember me is that what you guys poured into me has come to fruition. I stopped posting because I knew something had to happen back then. I never told anyone, but I was struggling hardcore with addiction and part of that was a porn addiction. I cut myself completely off from the internet because I had had a Christian upbringing and remembered that Yeshua said that it was better to pluck out ones eye if it causes you to stumble. That principle led me to take extreme measures and beat porn for good. What I also never told anyone was that I was on the verge of ending my life. I had literally planned it out and was going to do it. Without this forum to support me I think I may have done it. Through your prayers for me whenever I asked for vague prayers or the time I asked to pray I wouldn't cut myself I again saved my life. God used you all mightily. Even though I would never wish I had gone through all of that it has come to fruition in that in my spare time I moderate for a game with around 40k people in the community and 20million downloads. These experiences God has used to save many people who were considering ending their lives (and many who threatened it who weren't serious).
Now that I have gotten through the rougher stuff I want to mention that after pulling through all of that I have since started my own business. I am also considering attending seminary (even though I'm almost 25 now even though my profile says otherwise) to further my understanding of the Greek and Hebrew languages among other things.
Life may not be what we want it to be, but if we trust in God he will work through what the enemy intended for harm. To anyone reading this who may be going through some of these things just know that there is another side. You are not walking off a cliff though it may seem this way. You can cross to this other side. It won't be fun, but you can do it. To anyone from 2011 who remembers me who wants to get back in touch and maybe chat a little please comment on this so we can reconnect.
Be strong and courageous. God bless.
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"life is not a game... for boys and girls to play... then change the rules when things don't work out their way..." -we as human (broken inside)